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I know it’s been a good minute since we lost cky, and to be honest I have been really struggling. I just wanted to point out cky left a whole, no one can fill. There are many things I can say about him, but I will keep it short. Cky you are still missed and I still cry. Rest and sleep well my friend. See you on the other side one day where I will kick your ass for leaving.

CK was a mountain of a man, always willing to teach and always willing to learn. He carried himself as if he was an old man full of wisdom and willing to share that with anyone who would listen. He would often tell me if you don’t have an old man in your pocket, get one. Basically meaning that we all need a mentor to help us along the way. For a while he was that “old man” for me even though he really wasn’t that much older then me. His knowledge and wisdom where invaluable though. His friendship even more so, we would sit and talk to all hours of the night, playing games, sharing meme’s, it was never a surprise to get a link to a nice gun now and then either.

I started to get to know CK about 5 years ago or so through Borgo a mutual friend, I was a vanilla no mods on my client kind of player but he got me to play Overkill with him. From there I was stuck to him like glue for probably a year and a half learning everything I could about every mod I could. Some I liked some I went with and flew and ended up teaching him a thing or two about now and then. It was a passion project we later started working on together with others on as well making the next Overkill.

Where CK didn’t really share anything personal most the time I felt like I knew the man. We talked family now and then as well as life in general. He knew my son and hung out with him now and then as well. He became part of the normal in the house, I wore headphones for a reason obviously… lol… but he was always home with us for a time it seemed like.

I feel like I can go on forever so for the sake of not writing a book more then I already have I will end with this.

Keep that old man in your pocket.

Share your knowledge and wisdom with those willing to learn, especially the young.

Be kind

We miss you and love you CKY, thank you for being an invaluable part of our lives, an amazing friend and brother, and all in all a good man. Till we meet again brother…

Oz

A few years ago I got invited to play with the PTA community and got to know CKY there. Even with a huge ocean between us, we still spent so many hours together. We spent so much time together online that he felt more like a brother to me. We could talk about almost anything.
Our shared love for computers and electronics meant that we always had something to discuss, often too many hours after when I should have gone to bed. He was such a great person to hang with.
As someone who plays many games online, I do get to know many people around the globe and if there’s one person I wish I would have been able to catch up with IRL, CKY would definately have been on that list.
Thank you for all the laughter and happiness you shared with us all. You will be missed.
Love always, your friend Bjurran from Sweden. Rest in peace.

The answer to my anti-spam question for this post was 42. Hitchhiker’s Guide to The Galaxy claims this number as the meaning of life. I think CKY would’ve found that irony rather funny. CKY was a wonderful friend, the last time I talked to him was June 11th. I rushed off call because my partner came home. I wish I could say goodbye one more time. We talked mostly over voice chats, especially recently. That’s primarily how I got to know what a lovely soul he was, outside of twitch. He was smart, and gentle and kind. He didn’t care who you were, who you thought you were, as long as you were kind, he’d be kind. whether he thought of himself that way or not. sudoku and puzzles and firebot, crayons and coffee and broken code, satisfactory and minecraft and squirrels with guns, will never be the same again. thank you cky for being in this world and letting me learn from you. I will miss you dearly. Thank you for everything. I hope we meet again some day in this wide universe. You were a joy.

I admittedly did not get to know CKY for very long, only meeting him a little over a year ago as of writing this, but to say he made a lasting impression in that short time is an understatement.

The first time I ever posted in the Firebot community was to ask for technical assistance, and in less than 5 minutes (I checked!) CKY had already jumped in to help me figure things out and got me on the right track. In time, I came to realize this wasn’t just some one-off fortunate timing of a staff member happening to see my post, but one of the core defining traits of CKY that made him the amazing individual that he was.

He was genuinely always ready to drop what he was doing to lend a hand to folks who needed it, no matter what it was, and in the time I knew him it truly felt like he spent more time giving to others than he spent on his own personal projects, even hopping in calls for hours on end to ensure that someone got all the help they needed. The calls with him were also just always a fun time, with plenty of joking and light-hearted ribbing to break up the monotony of coding issues.

He was a great friend, a great developer (to which he’d say “I’m not a developer!!”), and a truly wonderful person. I really wish I had the chance to tell him “thank you” in person one more time, not just for all the help he gave me, but for what he gave to everyone around him.

Instead, I’ll just say it here:

Thank you, CKY, for everything.
-Oshi

CKY was a very private person, but if he called you “friend”, he meant it. CK helped me through some dark times, and, I’m sure he was there for a LOT of other people.

I met this incredible person through Firebot, streaming, and the PTA community. I am certain, that his online persona was who he was in real life. He gave hard truths, but did have compassion and cared for his friends. This is a soul that I will deeply miss. If I could get in his “earholes” one more time, I’d drop everything to do so. He was a true friend beyond the internet. Period. There were more than a few late nights just talking to him. A few shared drinks over voice chat. More than a few laughs. And a touch (maybe more) of dark humor. This man saved me from my own demons. I don’t know what else I can say except, Love you, Miss you, and now that you have found sleep – I hope it’s sweet.

CKY was one of my best friends. We met in 2018 when he came across my stream on Mixer and he said he was amazed at my moving banners and other whatnot. In the following days, he trolled me like crazy. Ofc, I trolled him back and we became fast friends. I made him one of my mods for my stream and community (against his will) and we took off from there. We would spend 16+ hours working together in private. He helped me build my computers, fix broken things around the house, we coded/made interactive things, discussed strategies, and yelled at companies about how their shit is broken and how they can improve it. Was it healthy? Probably not, but it was super fun and we were passionate. During those long hours together, we also talked about our lives, experiences, families, and troubles. We shared memes, jokes, and all kinds of whatnot. We became very close those first couple of years.

In the subsequent years, with the fall of Mixer and some terrible events in my life, we stopped talking as much. Still would here and there, but it was considerably less and I was no longer working on my stream or community. I got too busy and too overwhelmed to be online very much. This is my biggest regret in our friendship. I pulled away and feel like I left him hanging. I am grateful for all the other people he had time to spend with after that, though, and that he was able to spend larger amounts of time in his own stream and working on other projects. I would pop in every so often, but definitely should have been there more. I invited him to my wedding last month, but he couldn’t come unfortunately, so I never got to meet him in person and give him the biggest hug that he deserved.

Since his death, I have spent every day working on art for him and talking to people about him (since I can’t talk with him anymore)….things I feel I should have done long before he passed. I sent his family flowers and condolences and lamented over being too far to actually attend his funeral. Now, I have set up this site for him and everyone that knew him. I have been loving hearing the stories of who he talked to, how he helped people, and what he did. I thought he would always be there for me to talk to, to hear his voice that I so often hear in my head, and its so very hard knowing that I can no longer reach out to him. He was a big part of my adult life and I’m not sure where to go from here, especially with online things. Rest in peace, CKY, I fucking love you and miss you with all my heart.

-Jenn